Back safe and sound

Having shopped till we dropped we packed till the zipper would barely close on our cases and said our goodbyes to Ed and got into the car for the final drive to the airport. I have never been so thoroughly searched in all my life. I think it was my nipple ring that set the thing off but I was literally searched all over my body. We made our way to the North West Airlines VIP Lounge and enjoyed the freee cocktails and snacks till 330PM when they closed and made our way to the gate. We preety much boarded straight away and went straight up the stairs to the upper deck.

The Upper Deck can only be described as Fabulous. There are only 10 rows, 5 in Upper and 5 in Premium. Service was fabulous and the flight became part of the holiday.

I managed to sleep for over 6 hours and was woken by the breakfast service. We landed 30 minutes earlier than expected and so were first off and into the shuttle bus to take us to the Terminal. They held all of the Economy Class passengers back for this and so you wear your shades and think Jacky Collins and just walk fabulously like a real lucky bitch.

We were first off and so were back at the car in no time and then droping Mikey off home I made my way back to unpack and pack again and headed straight to Leeds. My head is spinning from not knowing which time zone I am in, I am tired yet wide awake and have been bombarded with people asking how they can help at Nazeings first Pride this coming Saturday. Its going to be a good month I can tell, even though its only just begun.

Final Night Final Day by the Bay

As the temperature plummeted last night a final meal with Ed seemed about all that we could manage. It seemed to be freezing. We went to a lovely Japanese Trendy restaurant. I do love Japaneese but I am always hungry afterwards. Maybe thats why we woke up by 6AM this morning?


Today is our final day in the city by the Bay. Mikey needs to run back down to Maceys to get return some underwear and get some last minute Tee Shirts and I will head to the Castro to pick up the last of our bits from here. Castro is far more like Covent Garden. Lots of bars, restaurants and Boutiques. Amazingly I still have space in my Suitcase and so can squeeze in a few more christmas gifts I am sure.

At 2PM we will have to make our way to the airport and will be homeward bound by 5. (Fingers crossed).

A huge Thank You to Ed & Jason for letting us stay! Fabulous as always sweetie. Its amazing, after all these years you meet people around the globe that you only get a chance to see once every year or two yet when you do meet up, its just like yesterday all over. Im so lucky (lucky bitch) to have friends all over the world and as Jason said to Mikey earlier, "Come back soon when Neil is on his next adventure in the USA". Of course as we age where thinking Venezuela or Rio may be needed soon, apparently plastic surgery is far cheaper there. Nip or Tuck anyone?

Consumer Society

I guess we really do live in a consumer society now, Mikey and I seem to have done nothing for 3 days but shop, shop and shop some more. We've had a laugh doing it and got some real bargains in the approach to Christmas. I think this is the third year running I have spent over $100 on underwear in one go, but you simply have to wear Calvin Klein dont you?

We had lunch in the roughest part of town meeting Mikeys friend from work in the tenderloin. Even she said that there were crack addicts on every corner so we left sharpish and made our way to Union Square and the big stores we love and trust. Gap, Ambercrombie & Fitch, Bloomingdales, Ruehl (Top end A&F) and hooked up with another of Mikeys friends Eric. Eric lives in London and we ran into him at the mall and did some retail therapy together.

Have got a fair few christmas presents sorted but no idea what to buy Dusan. I have to ship it to Fort Lauderdale. Will shop again tomorrow and find him something suitably fabulous. Tomorrow we plan on hanging out in Castro and doing a final shop and then its home sweet home! All good things have to come to an end eh? Besides, its far too cold here for us!

Lunching, Napping, Shopping

We invited Ed & Jason along to brunch at Tangerine and actually made it through the wintery showers to the restaurant by around noon. The place was packed and after waiting all of 30 seconds, Ed decided HOME! We thought he was mad and wanted to go home, but actually he meant the very fabulous Home Restaurant on Market Street, Castro. Home of the famous, $3 make your own Bloody Mary Bar. Never had a bloody mary with Horseradish in it before. But it was rather scrummy and considering Vodka is made from Potatoes it counts towards two of your five a day fruit and veg right?

We both tucked into Eggs Benedict with Home Fries. Delishious. Why is it something we can rarely get in the UK? Of course with eyes bigger than my Belly, Mikey had to finish half of mine. I can be certain if the Hot Rox dont make me thin, having Mikey eat half my food will.

It must have been either too much food or 2 bloody Mary's but we were home by 130 and laid down on the bed for a quick rest and ended up sleeping nearly 3 lies. You think that was bad? Ed didnt get up till 10PM. At 430 we dressed and made plans for a wet and windy one (Im not just talking Mikey's bottom here). We braced the weather and drove to Oakland for our now infamous Wal Mart Shopping days. We managed to spend over 3 hours in Wal Mart filling our cart with more bargains than TK Max. We laughed till we nearly wet ourselves at some of the things we put in the cart. I mean, why exactly did Mikey want these enormous fluffy white cat shapped ugly foot massaging slipper? Apparently it was for the secret santa gift at work but man are they Ugly!!!! His still laughing now so obviously doesnt like the recipient of that gift eh? Hmmm, maybe thats why I got a pair socks last year! LOL.

Came home, unpacked our bags and headed into Castro for dinner? Its the first trip I feel I have not pilled on the weight! Must be that new Mikey Plan I am on! I call it M Fast! X

Lies & Fine Dining

Woke up this morning and Ed tells me he read my Blog last night. He was laughing at the fact I said "Someone said it was always 65 degree's in San Francisco. Someone Lied". At least he see's the funny side of things.

Last night Mikey and I went to dinner at Asia de Cuba at the Clift Hotel. Wow, what a fantastic meal. It was a gift to Mikey for his birthday and me for Christmas from Alex. One of those places you would never usually go to unless recommended and turns out to be a highlight of the trip. So full of sexy boys, fabulous food and great settings in a turn of the century hotel (Lucky Bitches).

About to go to one of my favourite places for breakfast, Tangerine in the Castro.!

Saturday Shopping

For some reason Ed and Thomas dont get the reason that we come to the United States to shop. We are here for the bargains that can be made shopping at places like Costco & Wal Mart. They would rather be seen in Saks or Luis Vitton just browsing at Items they would never buy or could afford. We couldnt believe that the cost difference for some equivilent to Niteoll here is 50 Times cheaper. We paid $6 for 500! Now thats a bargain!!!!

The afternoon was spent browsing in Castro, enjoying a couple of cocktails in a few bars and just chilling out at home. City breaks certainly are not as relaxing as a beach holiday but with Mikey being part Chinese he cant sit on the beach for long. Actually he cant even drink a glass of wine without turning red. I feel the odd one out with Ed being Filipino, Thomas is from Hong Kong.

On the way back from the store in Thomas's 4X4, Chelsea tractor Ed asked, "Do you guys go to church? Only Jason didnt use to, he was athiest and we went to church and he was praying and hallelujahing like a Gawd Darn Mother F%^%*r! We didnt know if we should laugh or bow our heads in shame. Ed really is Craaazy but you cant help but love him.

Mikey has always made fun of the way my accent changes the minute we touch down on American soil. After 3 years of our annual pilgrimage I think its affecting him too now. Ed came back back from the store and Mikey shouted in Roseanne Bar style accent "Hiiiiiiii Ya'lll". It was so funny hearing Mikey say it. He even said, "If dont talk like that they dont understand me"

Last night we were in a bar and the light was bad. Mikey went to get what he thought was a glass of water from the counter and poured from a thermos flask a cup of cold liquid. His face turned to shock to discover it wasnt water but actually Half & Half cream and milk. It was the free coffee bar.

So somethings never change, we end up laughing a lot when we go away which can only be a good thing dont you agree?

The city by the Bay

Mikey had never been to Twin Peaks and seeing as its a few minutes from Ed's and is one of the highest points in the city with such wonderful panoramic views we headed up there for a our Tourist shots.

We then went with Ed and his friend Thomas into Downtown San Francisco. I have never seen the city so crowded. We went straight to the Rotunda at Neimum Marcus to dine. It was Thomas's birthday and is probably the equivilent of dining at Harvey Nicholls restaurant. We ordered but were told that the restaurants Gas was out and all we could have was Salads. I went into a Lauren from Catherine Tate and did this whole "Are you dissrespecting me, are you saying we are fat and need to eat Salad? Are you calling my mother a prostitute? Does this look like the face of bovvered? Face? Bovvered? Is it because Ed's Filipino?" She just didnt get our humour but we were all wetting oursleves.

Seeing as the streets were so crowded we came back to Castro to have a few drinks and ended up doing Thai for dinner. As the sun went down so did the heat. Thankfully we now have a heater and a second Duvet!

Thanks Giving in San Francisco

After only getting 5 hours of sleep at the Hilton and apparently I watched a movie with Mikey (Why did I drink at Molton Brown?) We made the short walk through terminal four and took the Heathrow express accross to Terminal 3 to check in. We tried our best to use miles to upgrade but they would only let me as Mikeys ticket was a free companion ticket. I bit my lip and decided I could make do in Premium Economy over Upper Class this one time. After all, we were sitting on the upper Deck.

We had this cute gay trolly dolly called Nick looking after us who's boyfriend, a real muscle mary was sat in the front row. We both thought he was rather cute till he got up and walked to the bathroom. He had more mince than Sainsburys. Was cute though. He even bought about 3 pairs of shoes for the flight? Why?

The flight was slightly delayed but we caught up for it on the flight. Mikey and I managed a nap and watched 4 movies each. We saw the Devil wears prada (so funny), The Al Gore Documentary "An Unfortunate Truth", Poisedon ( I really shouldnt watch a movie about a ship sinking at present" and The Queen plus some Catherine Tate. Movies on demand are the greatest thing they invented on a plane.

San Francisco International airport was almost disserted as it was Thanksgiving so within one hour of landing we had cleared Immigration, Customs and were sat in our rental car. How we managed to find our way to Eds with direction in 15 minutes I don't know.

Ed greeted us with his tradional shout of "EDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD" and the house smelled of freshly baked Pumpkin Pie and 20 lbs of Turkey that was still cooking in the oven.

At around 6PM we made the short drive over to Twin Peaks where Ed's friend Thomas lives. I met Thomas last year while dining at Neinum Marcus Rotanda. Oh my Gay God. You would not believe the view as he had floor to ceiling glass on the hill directly above the city (I will try and publish picture). We gorged on Turkey, Stuffing, Beef, Cranberry, Pumpkin Pie and way to much alcohol. Though I think I have taste for Kir Royale (Except he made them with Chambord which even more fabulous! Lucky Bitches).

As 9PM came around what with the 8 hour time difference, Jet Lag and alcohol got the better of us and we made our way back (someone else was thankfully driving) and crashed out at 930 PM. I thought someone said it was always 65 Degrees in San Francisco. Well somebody lied. Even Ed said I wouldnt need a coat. A thermal jacket would be more suitable and only this morning did we realise that there was a second Duvet at the end of the bed and we had shivered under the thin summer one all night.

Its a gorgous sunny morning in San Francisco so time to go and explore the bay and stop at some place that sells gloves, scarf & hat.

He dreams of the Queen

I got home this evening, home being the Hilton Heathrow and found an email from Duan. He said that he had dreamt he met my mother who was Queen Elizabeth. My parents are not that strange of an approachable, I guess he just finds it hard

Molton Brown was a sucess. Loads of good friends and a fun time. You cant beat that. Jason Rosam at his best, and all my good, good friends having fun.

Hope you can make the next one. Love Neil xx

Checked in and Ready to go

Well im now at the Heathrow Hilton. Patsie got us a fabulous deal and in the end who wants to get up at 5AM and have to trek half way across town. So Im here and about to freshen up and head into the west end via tube to host another of my mow infamous Molton Brown Gentlemens Evenings. The great thing about checking in early is I can actually have a drink at my own party!

I have no idea who will show up, but it should be a lot of fun and then Mikey and I will make our way back here via tube for the final countdown to San Francisco.

Missing Him Missing Me

Had my weekly call from Dusan which cheered me up no end. His telling me how depressed he is becoming on the ship and how he doesnt enjoy it. Two people missing each other is the worst thing in the world.

We talked for ages and I did mention that DTPM's Birthday party that he said he would be back for is actually in March this year. :-) The 21st of March to be precice so he said he will be back by the 19th. At least we have an end point in site now.

If only he would come back early, he can make just as much money here as he does on that ship. But its what his got to do.

Aside from that, I have packed my case and am ready for my Molton Brown Gentlemens evening tomorrow (Next one is in spring).

Mikey and I always book into a Heathrow hotel the night before. It makes the holiday longer and the excitement mounts quicker.

So San Francisco here we come. Dusan baby, hang in there, its under five months now and we will be together for ever more!

New Fridge Freezer

Phew. You never know whats on your door step until you need it eh? Well it appears that there is a whole kitchen show room just down the road from me. So I went in and said I need one of these and by the way doesnt my cousin Denham work here? Well just by saying Denhams name I got 30 quid off.

It will be delivered tomorrow! If I get a super contract I deffinitely want the double American style one with ice dispencer. But until then Ill at least have a new Fridge Freezer.

Whos gonna be the wife?

Dusan and I have often asked, who will be the wife? I guess I have proved it, its me, im pathetic.

The Fridge Freezer is beyond me. It has always been tempremental. But First the Fridge went then the Freezeer, so its dead. Now I've looked and looked looked online but then there is the big old problem that it has to fit in exactly the right space. I cant work out what will fit where. And online it says about colours and stuff, all I want is a cold pint of milk in the morning.

I bet Dusan would know exactly what to do. I just feel lost and helpless and pathethic. So I guess I am the wife and I want my husband home to help fix things.

Missing him

I just cant get him out of my head! Which is a good thing, I am sure, I just miss him so much, especially now, at weekends, when you most want to be snuggling up to the main that you love. To cuddle on a cold winters morning, to spend the last breat you utter each night saying goognight and waking up and saying goodmorning to that person you love from the bottom of your heart. Thats what I want, my Good Night and Good morning. Nothing more, nothing less, just that. Goodnight. x

Learning Croatian and working out

I must have needed the sleep as I slept from midnight to 1PM. Oops. I don’t mind having a lazy one like that when I have a 5AM start tomorrow. I’m never good at early starts but it’s even worse in the winter. Still one has to make a living and at least I don’t have to do that stupid hour every day.

Finally it’s the 15th and I can pay myself anytime after the 15th so did all of my accounting this afternoon then forced myself to the gym again. My new program today included 20 minutes cross training, 20 minutes Running, 20 Minutes Stair Climbing and some upper body weights. I have to be slim by the wedding right?

I found a website that translates English to Croatian so sent Dusan an Email in Croatian. Will do the same with this blog. Its not an easy language to learn but I am working on 10 phrases per week.

This weeks include my name is… and Do you speak English? Its such a hard language. But I will give it a go so I can at least say something’s to him in his native tongue.

Came home, had an nice Email back from him. He gets moved to one of Carnivals biggest ships tomorrow. I wish I could afford to take a cruise and surprise him. Hey Ho.

Im up at five AM so off to bed now. Sweet dreams and roll on San Francisco in a weeks time.



Moram reći imati koji je potreban da bi se san kao JA slept from ponoć to 1PM. Oops. JA don’t imati što protiv vlasništvo lijen neki ovakav našto Imam 5AM početak sutra. I’m nikada dobar at ranije početak ali it’s ravan pogoršana in zima. Pa ipak neki je to izdržavati se i barem JA don’t morati to učiniti omamljen sat svaki dan. Napokon it’s 15th i Ja mogu plaća ja osobno bilo kada nakon 15th na taj način je svi od moj računovodstvo ovaj poslijepodne onda prisilan ja osobno to kratica za GYMNASIUM opet. Moj nov plan danas sadržano 20 minuta prijeći odgajanje , 20 minuta Trčanje , 20 Minuta Stepenica Ispinjanje i neki gornji tijelo povećati težinu primjesama. Imam biti postati vitak mimo vjenčanje pravo? JA postaviti website taj prevodi Engleski jezik to Hrvatski na taj način rečenica Dusan Elektronička pošta in Hrvatski. Htijenje obaviti jednak sa ovaj blog. Svoj ne lahak jezik naučiti ali Ja sam rad na 10 fraza na tjedan. Ovaj tjedni uključiti Ime mi je is… i Govorite li engleski? Svoj kao što je tvrdo jezik. Ali JA htijenje popuštanje Internet ići na taj način Ja mogu barem ono što je kazano nešto to njemu u njegovoj urođenik jezik. Je došao home , je izbirljiv Elektronička pošta leđa from njemu. On dobiva ganut to neki od Karneval veći u najboljem redu sutra. JA priželjkivanje JA mogao priuštiti uzeti krstariti i iznenađenje njemu. Hej Ho. Im gore at pet AM na taj način od to krevet zatim. Sladak san i nastaviti se San Franjevački in tjedni vrijeme.: )

Body Workout

After an absense of several months, I hadnt been back to the gym since Dusan arrived in August I have been making a concsious effort to go more often. Last week I had my work out program re written and now am aiming to do all three work outs in one week. All three include Cardio and Weights and yesterday was lower body, legs and back. Today will be Arms & Chest! Want to be that much fitter by the time Baby comes back and who doesnt want to look good in a nice tight white tee shirt?

Came back via Sainsburys and bought as much fresh and healthy food as I could, only to find that the the Fridge has died. Its a combined Fridge Freezer and only the Fridge Part is no longer cool but rather warming. I have switched the food into Freezer compartments but now I have to buy another Fridge Freezer ASAP. Its not easy owning a house is it? Im used to something breaking and you call the land lord. Hey Ho.

Not heard from Dusan in five days, guess they must be working him hard. Back to work tomorrow and been getting Christmas presents sorted this week. I have a feeling the next month will simply fly by. Dont you?

City Bankers

Had another day at the Bank today working on the trading floors of Canary Wharf. Officially I am there to offer support on a Go Live day with the new Dealer Boards but in reality I get there, show up and all the full time staff go home leaving the contractors to cover. We wander around and ask everyone if they have any queeries or need any help but in the end you can only ask them so much. The day goes by so slowly when you have little to do. Thankfully I wasnt alone or it would have been really grueling. I guess a lot of people would think, you get paid for doing nothing, Lucky Bitch.

At lunch time I went out to try and find a new pair of shoes but figured that Jones the Boot Marker would have a sale any day now! Hmm, so need some new shoes. Am I sounding like Carrie Bradshaw now? Hmmm, maybe thats a good thing?

Post Sam Vangeen's Birthday Party

Gary had kindly offered to let me stay over at his so that I could at least enjoy a drink and not worry about having to Park. I had arranged to meet Marcello for lunch in Soho and and so made my way to Gary's for about 530PM. We had been supposed to be at Sam's flat for 7PM for a pre party cocktail. However Public transport wasnt in our favour. I knew there was a reason I always like to take the car. We waited forever for a bus and again forever for a train but finally got there at 745PM. Half of the gang was there, Sam, Ben, Amanda, RJ, Mikey, Steve, Fifi & Vinnie and Big Dick who co hosts with Julian on Saturdays plus a whole load of other people i recognised from events over the summer. Sam introduced me to Richard and it was one of those moments where I didnt realise who it was at first. Then once we got down to the bar at 815 I realised immediately. He was the friend of Julian Bennet who was in my Hotel room during Euro Pride. I knew I never forget a face.

Several Magners later we were all a little festive and they soon ran out of Magners (How very dare they!) so had to switch to Beer. How Calorific.

Sometimes the best of plans go to pot, we had bought travelcards and so had planned on catching the last train back into London. When I next looked at my watch and several glasses of Champagne later it was already 130AM. Ooops, no more last train eh?

We ended up chatting and chilling with everyone until gone 630AM and got a taxi back to Clapham. By the time we finally got into bed it was gone 8AM. I thought I was going to have a nice quiet evening out but ended up just as mad as always. It was great to see everyone again and as always, Roaming Reporter RJ for poo on a Stick news reporting back for the nation. The things we do when we are drunk.

Fabulous night out, and one that I will probably be catching up on sleep over for a fair few days yet. Well life is for living right? Just wish my babycakes could have been there to enjoy it with me. It doesnt matter where I am he is always in my heart and mind. I guess that is proof that no distance in time or space can lesson the love of two sealed at the heart.

Pre Sam Vangeen's Birthday

Stayed home last night and had a night of movies and chilling. Well its so cold you really dont wanna be facing the west end in this weather.

Today however is a fuller one. I am meeting Marcello for lunch in town later then meeting Gary around tea time before making our way to Sam's to help celebrate her Birthday. Happy Birthday Sam.

Seems like everyone has a birthday coming up at the moment, right before Christmas too. Guess that you cant choose the day that you were born eh?

10:30 last night Dusan had a 15 minute break and gave me a call. He will found out on Wednesday when he finishes his studying on the College Ship with Carnaval where he will be posted for the next 5 months. Whether its the same ship or if he will be moved to somewhere else on the Carnaval fleet. Hopefully once we know that we can plan a place to meet before he returns in April. Fingers Crossed. April does seem such a long long way away.

Have a fab Birthday Sam and see you later. x

Christmas is our very favourite time of the year

I have to confess, that the line from the song a family I knew in Utah used to sing, "Christmas is my very faveourite time of the year" is one of my faveourite Christmas songs of all time. Emily has never even heard a recording of it but has practically learnt the entire song over the last five years. We look forward to Gingerbread Lattes at Starbucks and our festive Sing Song.

But for some reason I dont really enjoy Christmas. Its like the one time of year that I feel more like an outcast than anything. This year more so than ever as my baby will be away.

I have had several offers for Christmas so dont know where I will be spending it just yet, I just wish I was spending it with you know who.

Next year eh?

Its official, I am the first house in the close to have my Christmas tree up and illuminated. Well if its good enough for Oxford Street its good enough for me. Thats what I say!

Back to the Gym

After a very lazy weekend and hardly leaving the house I promised I would make a start on cleaning out all the toot I have aquired over the past year and have nearly finished sorting the office ready for a spare room bed to be delivered.

After an afternoon of endless phone calls I finally made it back to the gym after nearly a month away. Well you cant go when you are full of cold now can you? I managed to do an hour of various cardio machines and have booked myself in tomorrow to have a new weights program put together to start on the toning again. I want to be firmer by the time I see Dusan again.

Talking of Dusan, I wasnt expecting a call today but at 11:00PM the land line went and it was him. He was on a short break and took the chance to call. His nearly finished his training and got 97% on his exam today. So proud of him. It was a crackly line and I said something along the lines of BA will be lucky to have you as crew. He miss heard and said "I dont care how much Carnaval like me, they are not having me for more than another 5 months". I know his promised he wont go back again but hearing him say it made me smile so much. I cant tell you how much I miss him in words. His really one in a billion and I hate the fact that his so far away. Thank goodness I have my friends who are keeping me busy. We will find out next week which ship he will be moved to and where his sailing to and at least then we can plan a meet up sometime in the new year.

So an early (ish) night for me tonight so I am ready for my new super muscle building program tomorrow at the gym.

Also heard from my friend Barrie today. Not seen him since Brighton Pride and his coming over later this week for a Disney Day. :-)

I cant believe its so close to Christmas. I have only bought 5 gifts so far. Better start going shopping soon eh?

Sweet Dreams. I know who i'll be dreaming of. x

Love is finding the one

I had a lazy duvet day today. Was just so cold that I couldnt face going all the way into the Capital. So I stayed at home, surfed, watched television and had a nice lazy day.

Around 11:20 I was surprised when the landline suddenly rang. I answered and it was the familiar voice of "Hello Moto" Dusan always says that when I answer the telephone.

I dont know if he has any idea how much he melts my heart or how much I really miss him. I think tonight, in our conversation that I realised that me misses me just as much. I cant believe that he is working for free on the ship for 3 weeks while his learning on7 the college ship. Only 2 more weeks and his earning again.

Only 2 weeks since he left, amazing it feels forever and yet in a small way has gone by preety fast. Its the home stretch now. We are both looking forward to growing old together and spending the rest of our lives as one. I guess that really is why they call them your other half. Without my other half I dont feel 100%, its like something, a part of me is missing. Not for long now. Roll on my birthday. Cant wait to see him again. Till then we have Nazeing Pride & Christmas and then before you know it will be 2007. Only 56 days till new years eve. Can you believe it?

Nazeing Pride Announced

After almost a year of talking about it Nazeings First Pride was announced this week. Why should all the big cities be the only ones to have fun. Saturday December 2nd should make it the latest and smallest pride on the planet. Hosted by yours truly. For further details email the Cowboy. It seems appropriate, especially while David is staying, that makes 4 gays in the village. Well 3, cos Jamie is just a little bit poofy. He even says that to me! Neil's Homo Warming / Nazeing Pride, Saturday December 2nd, 2006.

Fireworks in Surrey Quays

The one thing that I can never get to grips with is DIY. Its like Adam & Dad got all of the good jeans when it comes to practical tasks like putting up a shelf or a cupboard or something. So I had to ask Adam to come over and put up my new bathroom cabinet that Richard had constructed last weekend. Its now hung nicely on the bathroom wall.

I then changed and drove over to Richard and Marks (The Leather Queens) whom were hosting their 3rd Annual Garden Firework party. The usual crew were there including Stuart (that's the badger) and all our first meeting with Stuart's new boyfriend Tong Ting, oh sorry, wrong mail order bride. It was Scott. He seems really lovely. I was a little confused is his name Scott the Scot? Or do they just call him Scott cos his from Scotland? (Just kidding).

We sat outside and watched the fireworks to many any ooh and an ahhh. One even set off a car alarm then we all cramped around the Chimnea constantly throwing on more wood in order to keep warm on a night where the temperatures were down to just above freezing point.

Made the journey home and had a lovely Email from my Baby Dusan (Miss you so much and you are always in my heart baby) and about to go to bed. Think I will have a lazy weekend and finish the office! Happy Guy Fawkes Night.

Dear Friends and Lover

Having woke up at the unearthly hour of 0600 this morning due to the fact that it was so blooming cold. It was the first night that the weather really turned. I mistakenly let the heat turn off and woke up freezing despite my Harrods Goose Down Duvet (Lucky Bitch). It was a gift from my friend Lee, Thank you Lee. I swap it over as my winter Duvet and even with it I was cold. Still whacked the heating up to 20 Degrees and I slept like a baby till just before noon.

I had the whole day off and had arranged to meet two of my dearest friends, Gill & Lisa. Seeing as I was seeing Gill in the evening, why not kill 2 birds with one stone and see them both in the same night. I also got to see my lovely God Daughter whos not really my God Daughter Megan. She was dying for me to meet her boyfriend Damian who didnt look that different from Dusan when he was Damian's age.

Was great to catch up with Lisa and Amazingly Zacherie, her 2 and a half year old son was asleep much of the time. When he woke, despite much crying he cheered up and I even got a kiss goodbye from him. His such a darling and only 2 years 6 months and already about 3 feet tall. How tall will he end up?

Left Lisa's just after 630 and made my way to Gills just up the road and spent the evening chatting and watching Cathering Tate on TV. As Gill and I have often said in the six years we have been close friends, we will always have Prague and each other. I think you can safely say that when I left we were both smiling much more. Love you Gill, Love you Lisa. So nice to see you both again and glad you can both make it to Nazeing Pride Event.

Have not yet asked my mother if she will be honary patron of the event. But its thanks to her and Dad that I am the unique individual I am.

When I got in had a text from Jaffa Joe in Brighton and talked for half an hour. I said to him I sometimes dont understand why everyone thinks I am so fabulous. I am after all, just me. He said "And thats why we all love you, you are just that, Just you. Nothing more, nothing less. Simply Fabulous?" Maybe Dusan & I should change our surname to Fabulous? What do you think?

Yes I have decided to host Nazeing Pride. It was Gary H's Idea. He said that the best thing I could do to cheer myself up would be to get stuck into organising something I have said I would do for a long time. Nazeing Pride. Why should the big cities be the only ones to have all of the fun? So I have got stuck in and it will happen the first Saturday of December. If you want an invite get in touch.

Finally, I just checked my email and had a lovely Email from Dusan. I know it sounds pathetic but just getting an Email or a telephone call cheers me up no end. Its not easy being away from the man you love. As Gill said they call them your Other Half because without them you are lost or incomplete. I really do feel like I have a piece of missing while his not here.

Tomorrow I will hopefully see Gary & the Leather Queens Annual Big Bang (Firework) Party.

Sweet Dreams and Keep Warm

Neil, the Vauxhallcowboy x