Its alright, Babys coming back!

Had a surprise phone call at around 2130 this evening from the love of my life, Dusan. Hard as I may try I cant move on with my life until I know either way if there is or is not a future for the two of us. We met in 2003 and started dating soon after and then after two near perfect years the Home Office revoked his work permit forcing him to return to Croatia after five years of working and paying tax in the UK. They said he could stay but not work and financially that was not an Option. He had always wanted to work on a Cruise ship and coming from the Ivy as Head water had little trouble in finding a job with carnival. He gets about a half day off per week at the moment and called me while on a break from his Cabin. Funny how you can feel happy all day and then a single phone call can change your mood. I know I come across as Brash and a big front as a the Cowboy but deep inside I am just as weak as everyone else and when your heart has fallen for someone its always hard when you are apart.

His Current Contract ends in August and so we were planning his visit in the summer. He has to book a flight home to Croatia first with the amount of Luggage he has and then will come and visit for a week or so.

I cant believe its been over 18 months since he left. In the time between then and now I have met people I fancy but have Never wanted to progress anything deeper than friendship as I have feelings in my Heart for Dusan. I think of him Everyday and miss him more as each day passes.

He will come for a holiday in the summer and then I may go back to Croatia with him for a while. Until Croatia joins the EU we are kind of stumped for Options. So here I am, stuck in Limbo, waiting for my baby to return.

At least we got to talk and catch up a bit on the telephone this evening and soon enough we will be dancing at DTPM and enjoying the fun times we had back in 2003 and 2004. Why does it hurt so much to say goodbye? Hardly seems fair that he cant come and work when if you live in Poland or other Eastern European countries that are part of the Union Can. So for now, I send you my love Baby and count the days until I can say hello and hold you in my arms once more.
Big love

Neil


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