Maybe its just me, but I don’t think anybody really understands quite how I feel right now. My husband would have been home today if all had gone to plan. Instead his away thousands of miles away and there is nothing either of us or any of our friends can do to change that. Fingers crossed, Tuesday we will get good news but until then, we both sit and wait. In Limbo, in love but sadly separated from one another just days after our Wedding.
I miss him so much. I can’t concentrate at work. I have no appetite and spent last night waking almost every hour on the hour. I was sleeping but reaching out for his warm soft body to hug close to. I find myself in tears mid day and feel pathetic that its all out of my control when I promised I would do all that I could to protect him and be there for him.
If for any reason we don’ t get the positive outcome we are hoping and deserve on Tuesday and I know my good friend Neil S would say Think POO. Positive Optimistic Outcome, I can see no alternative but to rent out the house and move over there. There is simply no way I would ever choose to live away from him again. Without him I am incomplete.
We have spent far too long living apart while we were waiting to wed, there is no mountain I would not climb and no river too deep that I would not walk the lengths of this planet to be with that man. I love him so much, miss him so much and right now this is so unfair. Newly weds are supposed to be together, inseparable. Not less than two weeks after the fabulous day forced apart my bureaucracy.
Roll on Wednesday, I miss you so much baby. I hope we can both stay strong.
Till then I have found myself frequently in tears and singing songs that mean so much. Today's song was Maria Carey.
I can't live, if Living is without you.
Somehow it just says it all....
No, I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way this story goes,
You always smile....But in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
No I can’t forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it’s only fair that I should let you know
What you should know
I cant live
If living is without you
I can’t live
I can’t give anymore
I can’t live
If living is without you
I can’t give,
I can’t give anymore
Well, I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way this story goes
You always smile
But in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
Can’t live
If living is without you
I can’t live
I can’t give anymore
Can’t live
If living is without you
I can’t live
I can’t give anymore
Ohhhhhh(No can’t live) No no no (No I can’t live)
I can’t live (No can’t live)
If living is without (No I can’t live)
I can’t live (No can’t live)
I can’t give anymore (No I can’t live)
Come home soon babycakes. I can't live without you. All my love
Neil xxx
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