Every time the land line goes in my house my heart skips a beat, a beat of anticipation, hoping that perhaps the caller at the other end will be Dusan. He usually calls me on the land line and aside from the odd call from Richard Ms Mason and cold sales calls it never rings. As I answered there was a second or two delay with the satellite connection. It was my babycakes.
Last time we talked we had gotten disconnected after a few minutes and the line went dead. He said it was probably the rough seas causing a bad satellite connection
We talked for 45 minutes this time about the party, about his life on the ship, what he had done at the mall in Fort Lauderdale yesterday, the colour of our ties for the wedding and most importantly about what he was going to do. Was it worth him staying for 6 months now that the dollar is so weak and set to devalue even further this week. Apparently its already at $1.98 to the pound. Was fabulous for Mikey and I shopping last week but its not so good for him changing it into Croatian Kuna or Sterling.
He said he will probably stay only till late January now and then will come back to visit. We are both hating being apart and his whole reason for being there is fading as the dollar dies.
He was asking if I thought he should come back and I would only be lying if I didn’t say its what I want more than anything else with all the love in my heart. I want to spend every day with him in my life. See his smile everyday and kissing him goodnight every night. To feel, touch and hold someone you hold so dear is one of the greatest gifts on earth.
So finally, it would appear that the countdown has begun again, maybe as short as 8 or 9 weeks and I will see the man I will spend the rest of my life with once more.
Keep strong babycakes, I know how much you hate it there, remember I did it for Disney too and I quit after a few months. There is nothing wrong with leaving a job in pursuit of better things. Keep smiling and know how much I love you.
For the first time since we said goodbye in Zagreb I can feel optimistic that I will see him sooner rather than later. I have never thought that 6 months could seem such a long way into the future. Just six months ago it was the middle of the summer and it was all just beginning, now his been gone nearly 2 months already and I miss him more each and everyday.
Let the countdown begin and may gods speed be with us both till we see each other again. All my love, Neil x
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