As the hours and minutes fast run out it’s a bit like watching those last precious moments in an hour glass. There seems to be a fair bit left and then before you know it its at the final grain and the time is up.
I hardly slept last night. How could I be expected to sleep when I knew that the minute I got up would be time to say goodbye. Dusan was much the same. Rolling over and cuddling all night long knowing that the time was nearly nigh.
He has promised that 6 months will be the longest duration he will be gone and that he will be back to help me celebrate my next birthday in April. Something that I cling to as my light at the end of the tunnel.
Now that its common knowledge and its official, I have to tell my parents. He said that he will find it easy as his mother will be sure to spot the engagement ring. He lives with her though while staying in Croatia. Mine on the other hand I will have to pluck up the courage to visit them and tell them what I think is exciting news. But you never know how they will really take it. I have faith. As Dusan said his mother will say, “If your happy son then I am happy”.
All that I know is that love is one of the most powerful of emotions and that this love will prevail. It will get stronger and although the forthcoming months will be difficult without him here the wait will be worth it in the end. Absence makes the heart grow oh so much stronger. Today he told me that he loved me more today than he has ever done and yet has loved me from the moment we started to date back in Feb 2003.
So for now there are two difficult tasks still lying ahead, saying goodbye within the next hour and telling our parents when we return home. I’m not sure which will be the most difficult but I know which will hurt the most.
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