Had to be up at 5AM to beat the traffic this morning but woke at 345 and couldn’t get to sleep again so got up at 4:00, made 2 very large coffee’s and then left at 545AM. Got into the car and Leanne Rhymes’s “How do I live without you” was playing on the radio. Didn’t I just mention that song a few weeks ago and how it plays on my mind time and time again. That and carpenters “Cant smile without you”. But I know I have to be strong.
Leaving the house that early I couldn’t believe how cold it was. Had to sit in the car for ten minutes till it defrosted and I’ve had my heating on already. Apparently the clocks change in a week or so and the winter will really be setting in.
Coming home took me 2.5 Hours. Time for a new job me thinks. Even the train to London is never that bad.
I seem to have lost my appetite too. Cant seem to stomach food. Guess that can only be good on the waistband but none the less. Is it too much to wish that he wouldn’t go on the cruise? I guess it is. I wouldn’t want anyone to hold me back from any of my life ambitions and for that reason I have to let him go. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt but its what I have to do for him. But I wont let him go without at least telling him how I feel.
This is supposed to be a happy blog. Sorry. I guess I need something to make me feel a Lucky Bitch again eh? X
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